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[Jun. 6th, 2008|07:54 pm] |
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would have been our two year anniversary today...:(
uugghh i need to get drunk |
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[May. 31st, 2008|08:01 pm] |
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my heart just broke into a million little peices....
why do these things alwyas happen to me?
Why?
What did I do wrong?
I don't even want to see the light of day anymore, i just want to lir in bed like a little hermit. Everything I done was for you and us and now... I just don't know.
I just want to know why?
I FUCKING HATE LIFE AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH |
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| alone yet again |
[May. 25th, 2008|01:42 pm] |
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well she left again. she got an awesome job in her home town for the summer. so there are going to be a few road trips in my future and in hers. i am so proud of her though, she just graduated university and now got this sweet job. i am going to miss her like crazy and its going to be tuff cus we only got to be together for a week after her being gone for over 2 months. but thats life and i am willing to go for the ride.
oh and to make it even btter i am effing sick... uugghhh damn sore throats.
love you sweetie! |
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| song |
[Mar. 31st, 2008|09:40 pm] |
I'm In Peace - Justin Nozuka
It always occurs to me
How lovely you look today
Just how you smile that way
Makes my heart melt
Seemed like just yesterday
When you stole my breath away
You walked into my life
You completed my soul
When you walked into my life
You completed my soul
(Chorus)
Now I'm in peace yea
I'm in peace
Whoa
I'm in peace when I'm with you
You set me free
You're all I need
Lift me off my feet
Beauty Queen
Where did you find that soul of yours
You must have traveled through heaven and searched through the garden of love
I swear there's a light
When your eyes touch me
It's like the sun reaching down from the sky
When you touch me with your eyes
It's like the sun from the sky
(Chorus)
Your whispering
It's uplifting
Sink into my body while I'm drifting
When you kiss me
Really truly kiss me
Connected by our hearts
We are one
(Chorus) |
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[Mar. 10th, 2008|12:20 am] |
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When You Look Me In The Eyes - Jonas Brothers
How long will I be waiting,
To be with you again
Gonna tell you that I love you,
In the best way that I can.
I can't take a day without you here,
You're the light that makes my darkness disappear.
When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes |
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| sad day |
[Mar. 8th, 2008|02:38 pm] |
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So michelle left to go home today, and its just for a little while. Shes going to be gone for 2 fucking months. I know there are people out there that have to go through more than that with their partners but it all still sucks ass. uuuuggghhh why couldn't she find a job here that she liked.... |
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| alone |
[Jan. 2nd, 2008|12:54 am] |
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I just don't want to be alone right now. I can't sleep. Shes not coming back til the 6th and I know thats not far away and that alot of people have to go even longer without the person they love but it just sucks. I wasn't to bad when I was home for the holidays cus I always had my friends and family around. Here is just different. I have roomates but they have their own lofe and my friends have their own partners and stuff and I really don't want to be a bother to them. I just miss her a lot. I wish I could just sleep the days away but I can't becuase of work. I just want her in my arms to hold. |
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| why |
[Nov. 12th, 2007|04:44 pm] |
i piss myself off a lot lately. i just don't know why i get like this. i mean why do i get so selfish about things that i shouldn't even discuss except yes go. what is wrong with me. uuggghhhh.
maybe its a little bit of dissapointment with the fact that we had plans to do something.but i mean this is her family and shit and here i am saying that i don't want her to go... i dunno |
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[Sep. 11th, 2007|03:18 pm] |
is it me that is doing something wrong. it just feels like i am not the best for her. when i see her cry or sad it feels like i am failing at being a girlfriend or just a friend. i try to be there. i try. i just don't know what to do. let me know what to do. should i stay home all the time. uugghhh i am to sick to think about this. |
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| presents |
[Jul. 18th, 2007|04:51 pm] |
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| |  giddy | ] |
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So it's my birthday.... and my girlfriend bought me an electric guitar and an amp!!!!!!!!!!!! What the hell!!!! I am soooo fucking happy!!!!! I was going to kill her hahaha. I was just talking to my friends about getting one. I already have an accoustic but sold my electric one to move to Corner Brook so I could be closer to Michelle. And then she goes and buys me one... I couldn't believe it! But yeah that is all... HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!! |
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| update |
[Jul. 12th, 2007|07:56 pm] |
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| | living room | ] |
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| | tv show - first 48 | ] |
I need to start writing in here more often. LOL. Anyways it has been a while since i have wrote in here. I got news that I am extended in my job until next March so i am crazy happy about that. Then on June 6th Michelle and I celebrated our 1 year and it was nice. We went out for supper and came home and had a nicee relaxing night together. I love that girl with all my heart. I will marry that girl sometime in the future.
It almost time for us to move out of the hell hole of a house we are living in. I can't wait. Me and Michelle might be getting a place by ourselves if we can't find a people to live with. We would rather find a roomate but its hard to find someone.
If anyone knows of someone let me or michelle know cus like i said we would rather have a roomate then have everything on our own but if not we will manage. PLus then we could walk around naked hahahahah j/k |
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| update |
[Apr. 29th, 2007|12:56 pm] |
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Well I haven't wrote here in a long time but things have not changed for the worst or for the better. I am stil in a loving and best relationship ever. I love her with all my heart. Unfortuately she left this morning to go home for 2 weeks. I really don't know what I am going to do. Like I am going to miss her soo fucking much that it is unbearable. This had never happened to me before. Like I have had long distance realtionships and shit and I have nevr felt this sooky and lonely before. I hope that she has a wicked time home and I know why she wanted to go, cus I mean her friends and family are important to her and that is another reason why I love her cus mine are important to me as well. So yeah the next two weeks are going to be lazy and lonely.
I am still working at the government job. It is going good. I got hurt the other day though. My hand got caught between a water dispenser and the 5 gallon water jug. That hurt.
But it is getting better now. I got to start taking the pills for it now.
OMG I forgot to tell you I am getting guitar hero 2 in like a week!!!!!!!!!!!! I can't fucking wait.
P.S I LOVE YOU MICHELLE |
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| just a little update |
[Feb. 5th, 2007|02:12 pm] |
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well I am home right now and my back is freakin killin me. I haven't had pain like this in almost a year. I thought it was getting better but guess not. Well anyways took the day off work just to see if it will get better. Working at a computer desk won't do much for it.
Well everything has been pretty good lately. Basically working and coming home to my girl. I love her so much it's unbelievable. Went out saturday night. Had a laugh meeting up with soem old friends that I haven't seen in a while. Actually meeting other ppl as well. I don't know a whole lot of ppl here. Like I said I usually just come home from work and hang with my girl. I am not complaining at all. I am just a really social person. Even if it is just going for a coffee. But yeah the bar, it was fun. Me and my buddy Melissa had a fucking laugh. We were doing interperative dancing to all the songs and having battles against each other...lol.... what a wicked time. The only thing that would have made it better was if my girl was there. She decided to stay home cus she had work to do for school and she wasn't feeling well. So that would have made my night 10xbetter.
We have tickets to go to Chantel Kreviasuk(sp?). I can't wait. Raine Maida is opening for her. Come on March 4th....lol Me and Michelle are going together and 2 days Later will be our 7 month anniversary. 6 months will be tomorrow. Crazy to think that. Itdoesn't seem that long at all. I guess I am have too much fun to think in time...haha |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 2nd, 2007|09:48 pm] |
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Well uuggghhh it sucks ass here without Michelle. I just want to curl up on the bed on just sleep until she gets here. I never thought that I could miss somone so much. Like I really don't know what to do. I have no urge to go anywhere. My friend had to convince me to come down for supper. It was nice I must say. But yeah she is comin back on thursday so I can't wait til then.
In other news, my christmas was awesome. I went home for 5 days and was basically drinking the whole time but never got drunk per say just had some casual. We had a party at my parents house on christmas day. What a laugh we had man. Had every instrument going that u can think of. I left and went to Corner Brook on the 28th to visit my g/f. I had an awesome time there. This was the first time that we had seen each other since the 20th(that is alot for us since we have been living together for the last 4 months..lol) but yeah I had an awesome time there. I loved spending time with her and her family, and friends of course. New years was amazing. We got all dressed in semi formal wear and went to our friends house and just partied until we couldn't party anymore. I got to kiss my girl on new years, it was just wicked. It sucked the next day though when I had to take the bus for 11 hours to get back here cus I had to work on the 2nd. But yeah Loved the holidays were good and it's sad that it is over and done with. |
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| Lonely...so lonely |
[Dec. 20th, 2006|04:57 pm] |
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Well my gf went home today for christmas holidays.... I am leaving in 3 days... so basically we haven't been apart in 4 months, this is tearin me up inside right now. I am almost in tears right now just thinking that I won't have her next to me tonight or for the next 8 days. I really don't know what to do... I am just sitting here like BLAH. I miss her soo much already but I know that she wanted to leave early cus she is homesick... I totally understand that.... I would be gone to except for work
Well other than feeling sad i guess nothing else is new... still working with the governement which is not a bad job... and still just chillin |
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[Dec. 4th, 2006|12:23 am] |
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So the holidays ae coming up. I can't wait to get home and see my friends. One thing that is going to suck is that I will be away from Michelle for a few days. Even though I will see her again on the 28th, cus I am going to Corner Brook for New Years, it still sucks. I wish I could wake up with her on christmas morning and have her with me. I know that it might sound greedy but I dunno...
Well in other news my job with the government is going pretty good. I can't complain. I got another job after that is over in my field. I can't wait actually doing something that I went to school for. |
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| new job |
[Nov. 19th, 2006|08:55 pm] |
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So I start my new job tomorrow!... I can't wait. I brought over the keys and uniform to my ex-boss today. It felt some good too. That place just gives me the creeps. |
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| Happy news! |
[Nov. 17th, 2006|12:29 am] |
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Well I just had another interview, but with the government this time. It was with the human resources and labour. Basically it is for office admin. I think I will like it more than Mary Brown's lol... but other than that not much new going on in my life.
Me and Michelle are doin great, love to death and will never love anyone the way I love her. I want to be with her forever and hope she feels the same way.
I bought her a couple of her christmas presents today. I am excited about it cus I really hope she likes what I get her.
We just watched the movie "The Break-up", it was good. Didn't like the ending all that much though. Had some funny parts and some tear-jerking moments as well. All in all it was a pretty good movie. |
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| update |
[Nov. 6th, 2006|09:13 pm] |
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Well not a lot has happend since my last post. Still working at the same job, but i got a promotion! Not that big of a promotion but it's keyholderso yeah. But then again I still don't want to be there so. I got a call today from the hospital to go for an interview for Physiotherapy Assistant job. I can't wait, I am waiting for them to call back with a time. Hopefully they do.
Me and my girl are doing great. Can't ask for any better. I love her so much. Just waiting for her tome come home from school there now. Miss her soo much.
On the bad side of things, my parents had to put my cat down:( I had her for 16 years. The vet thinks she had cancer. So I guess when I go home for christmas that it's going to be pretty lonely. But anyways that is all for now i guess. |
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| poem |
[Oct. 2nd, 2006|11:57 pm] |
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Your smile
Your laugh
Your eyes
Your touch
These are the things that continue to make me smile.
Your body
Your mind
Your soul
Your love
These are the things that I cannot live without.
You are my dream
You are my life
You are my friend
You are my lover
These are the things that make me shine. |
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